“Dear Lesbianism”:
This is my farewell letter to you. We’ve been together for about 15 years now and we’ve had some good times. But the truth of the matter is we’ve had more bad times than good. When you introduced yourself to me it was with promises of fun, fleshly pleasure, unending love and acceptance. You really painted a nice picture girl.
Time reveals all. Rather than what
you promised, you’ve given me heartache, confusion and lust. Oh, and let’s
not forget the biggest gift you gave to me – SELFISHNESS. Selfishness for
me to have my way with you at the expense of others, and others having their way with me at the expense of me.
Cheating, lying, manipulation, control and promiscuity are things you’ve brought
into my life. Your sisters are full of them – and so am I. Now that the honeymoon is over with you, all I can see are wounded and hurt souls once I get beyond
being in the arms of a woman. And I am among the wounded. One wounded woman
seeking out another wounded woman and then we create a whole community of wounded women that go from bed to bed to wound the
next victim. Lesbianism, you are so heartless.
Girl, it’s time for me to pack up your things, call you a cab and bid you
goodbye. I know that it won’t take you long to find the next victim, hell
it may even be the cab driver. I’ve got some work to do. I’ve got to take some time out for myself to embark on this journey of digging up wounds and hurts. I need to know what I found so attractive in you – why did I let you push me
from bed to bed to only leave more scarred. Why did I let you control my life? Why did I open the door and let you in?
This is not going to be a small task lesbianism.
That’s why I have to shift my focus now. I have to switch my focus
to that other L Word – LOVE. The love of God for me. His love is unconditional – yours isn’t. His love
is forgiving – yours hold grudges. His love is everlasting – yours
is there until the first big fight. His love wants to bring me good – yours
wants to take away my good.
